Monday, February 4, 2013


I never took baby bump pics when I was pregnant with the boys. I don't regret it either. Pregnancy is definitely not the most glamorous for me. :)

However, this time around, I am far away from family and I want them to be able to follow my pregnancy with baby boy #3.  

So, here we go. I'm putting myself out there.

18.5 weeks, 21 weeks, 23 weeks (today)

There is definitely a baby in there! 

I'm feeling pretty good these days.  Besides some lower back and hip pain, I really can't complain.  At 23 weeks this little guy most likely weighs about 1lb and is the size of a small doll.  :)

We still haven't picked a name.  Choosing a 3rd boy name is proving to be difficult! AND It's tough finding a name that goes with our last name. Hopefully he will be named before he arrives.

We have yet to start on the nursery.  I recently bought bottles, and the crib, dresser/changing table, and rocker are in his room and that's about it.  My 0-3 month boy clothes are some how lost (how this happened... i have no idea?!?) so there are lots of things to buy and prepare.  

We will be heading to Birmingham towards the end of February for my beautiful sweet cousin, Ivy's, wedding. My goal is to start getting things ready for this little guy once we return to Omaha.  I'll be 27 weeks along at that point.
(rabbit trail.... In every wedding that I have been in, I have either been pregnant or have just had a baby.  NOT good for photos I tell you. Someone, please! Ask me to be in your wedding when that is not the case!)

Well, I know this is not a very exciting post, but i'm sure my family and close friends appreciate it.  I need to update you all on my big boys soon!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

My Pregnancy To Date.

I thought it would be a good idea to think back and document what my pregnancy with little guy has been like so far.

We had a really, um, interesting beginning.

I took a positive pregnancy test on Sunday, Sept 23rd.  This also happened to be John and mine's 6th wedding anniversary.  We weren't trying to get pregnant at the time (so the story goes with each of our children!) so it was a really nice surprise, as we weren't really trying to prevent it either.

We got to celebrate two big occasions on a date that night at a really yummy restaurant.  Unfortunately my celebrating didn't include wine and a medium rare steak.

The stomach issues started that night on the way home from dinner.  And, it was downhill from there.  The first trimester of this pregnancy included lots of nausea, fatigue, and just plain feeling yucky.  My pregnancies with Joe and Noah were so much more pleasant at that stage.

I have irregular cycles (TMI maybe??) so they got me in pretty quickly for an ultrasound, since we weren't sure how far along I was.

This is the image that we got at, what turned out to be, 5 weeks and 6 days gestation...

"Well would you look at that. There are TWO sacs there."

....John and I looked at each other with big eyes and my filled with tears. 

I was overwhelmed, anxious, and to be honest, freaked out.  

I was thinking to myself: God, what in the world is going on here?! I already have two kids AND I'm 17 hours away from my family.  I don't know if I can handle this. 

We scheduled another ultrasound for two weeks later.  The nurse practitioner who performed my ultrasound said that it is common for one of the sacs to disappear, especially since one of mine was smaller than the other and it was so very early in my pregnancy.

The next two weeks of waiting was very emotional for me.  I had constant questions running through my head, worries, unknowns, and fears.  I just wanted to be excited about this pregnancy.  

(Please know, that I believe every life is a blessing from God, and a lot of my emotionally tough couple of weeks was spent wrestling with guilt for not being super excited about the possibility of carrying twins. I'm just being honest here.)

Fast forward two weeks.  Ultrasound time. 

How am i going to feel if there are still two?  How will I feel if one is gone?

The image appeared on the screen.  One healthy baby. No sign that a second sac ever existed.

The ultrasound tech said that it may never have been a baby.  It could have been a sac of blood or a sac of nothing.  

With that, I felt relieved.  I was worried about dealing with a sense of loss, but it didn't seem to be the case.  

At around 13 weeks, the all day and night morning sickness pretty much disappeared.  To this day, i still get nauseas if my stomach is empty or with really yucky smells, but I feel much better than I did!

I never wrote letters to Joe or Noah, but I wish that I did.  I guess it's never too late to start with any of them. 

Baby Boy-

We are working really hard on naming you.  My pregnancy with you has been so different that I thought you would probably be a girl.  Honestly, I was hoping you would be a girl, so I didn't spend much time thinking about boy names.  As soon as we saw you, as healthy as could be, wiggling around in my tummy, even with a pee pee, we loved you and were so excited about you.  You see, one of my best friends just lost her little one, only a couple of weeks older than you.  She was going to be your best buddy, neighbor, and girlfriend :).  When the ultrasound tech said, "There is no mistaking. It's a boy!"  I didn't care that you weren't a girl. My hopes weren't shattered.  I was grateful, so grateful, that my hope for a healthy baby was still alive.  Your beautiful little friend in heaven put things in perspective for me.  I will tell her "thank you" one day.  

I can feel you moving a whole lot.  In the mornings, you can be felt on the outside. It's almost as if you are rolling around and stretching to get ready for the day.  Your Daddy couldn't feel Joe or Noah this early.  You must be a strong little one!

Joe and Noah are so excited about you.  They both wanted you to be a boy.  When your Daddy announced that that is just what you are, Joe said, "That's just what I wanted!!"  They rub my belly and talk to you.  They haven't been able to feel you yet, but they ask every day when they will be able to. They have a couple of name ideas for you, but I don't think we will be taking their advice. :)  "Bullet" and "Ronnie Crest" are a couple of them.  (Who knows?!?)

We already love you.  We pray for your health and development, and we thank God that His plan for you is to be a part of our family.  We can't wait to see God's plan for your life unfold.



Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Hello. It's Been A While.

Goodness gracious.  I think I forgot that I had a blog? And how about this header? SO outdated. (Honey- think you could come up with something else?)

I won't attempt to catch up, but I do have some news to share. And, hopefully this will be the beginning of documenting what is to come for our family.

I am 19 weeks and 1 day pregnant with our third child. (WHAT?!?) Yesterday we had the big ultrasound to find out the sex of this sweet little blessing.

Guess what?!? 

...........................We are having.......................



Three baby boys in our house. I'll be outnumbered 4-1.

I'll be honest and tell you that I desperately wanted a girl. But, I am still so excited and grateful for a healthy little guy.  John and I prayed together before the ultrasound, first for health, and second, that no matter what sex our child was, we would be nothing but excited for the little life that God has gifted us with.  God has had a plan for this sweet life for a looooooooong time, and I am comforted by that.

So begins the fun stuff. Nursery decorating, clothes shopping, and sifting through the sweet little outfits that Joe and Noah wore as tiny little things.

In other news, Hubby John has launched a new company called Illuma.  He's a rockstar when it comes to animated videos. Check out his website! And if you know of anyone, any company, or any ministry that might need his services, pass it along!

Thanks for letting me share our exciting news.